Showing posts with label Growing up. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Growing up. Show all posts

Thursday, June 12, 2014

The Class of '64

We
were here.
We were here in our beanies and blazers – preppies,
pub-schoolers, commuters too – college guys now,
but wondering how much those other guys knew.
Elvis, King of Pop, sang It’s Now or Never, and OWL
Lacey challenged: Look right, look left, one
of you three won’t make it, and backed it up
with a tough English exam, required Calculus
and a hundred yard swimming test.

What did we freshmen know when Castro
nationalized Esso?  When Khrushchev pounded
the UN podium with his shoe?  When the Civil Rights Act
of 1960 passed? When candidate Kennedy
spoke on the steps of the Hartford Times?
When the US committed troops to Vietnam? 

But when Playboy’s first  club opened in Chicago
when the Magnificent Seven screened in theatres
and the Flintstones on TV, when Cassius Clay
won his first professional bout, when beer
appeared in aluminum cans, we were ready.
It didn’t take us long to find The View,
and to learn our way to Conn College,
Holyoke and Smith.

As the of terror of teachers and tests waned, professors
became mentors, role-models and friends.  We
knew their first names, and followed their lives
if not all their lectures.  George Cooper, Snortin’
Norton Downs and Gene Davis made history
relevant and we became lawyers and professors. 
Bob Battis taught the dismal science, Ward Curren
was inspirational, and we became financiers
and financial advisors.  Gus Sapega brought
our punch cards to United Aircraft’s mainframes and we
became programmers and entrepreneurs.  Wendell
Burger in Biology and Henry DePhillips in Chem –
and we became doctors.  Trinity’s first woman
professor, Maggie Butcher taught us math and we
became actuaries and an insurance company president. 

We were here for Saturday morning classes –
well sort of – and were rewarded with hopes
of winning a football game.  And one glorious
Saturday afternoon in 1962, we did beat
undefeated Amherst 25-23.  Soccer brought us
to NCAA tournaments, and Barry Leghorn
set a basketball scoring record.  Baseball, track,
the beginning of crew – fourteen varsity sports,
who knew?

Music came to campus – Joan Baez,
Miles Davis, Duke Ellington, James Brown,
and the Ronettes.  Ah, the Ronettes –
three libido-pumping women in tight
white skirts slit to the thigh who were ready
to Be My, Be My Baby.  Fraternities, clubs
and musical groups separated us, and joined us
together too.  So did mixers, dating and proms.
We pledged and partied, played and performed
and hoisted our dates through Northam windows. 
And when we got too enthusiastic, the Medusa
reminded us how to be gentlemen.

We grew here – learning
something of ourselves, and of others
and of the world beyond our studies. 
As upper classmen, we debated  
the festering issues we had hadn’t
understood as freshmen – Castro
and our failed Bay of Pigs, Khrushchev
and the Cuban Missile Crisis,  Allen
and Chatfield arrested with SNCC  
in Georgia, President Kennedy
shot and dead in Dallas, the build-up  
of troops in Vietnam, the ticking clock
of our own draft eligibility. 

By 1964, there were Playboy Clubs
in a dozen cities – but not Hartford. 
Dr Strangelove was at the movies
and Peyton Place on TV.  Ousting King Elvis,
the Beatles starred on The Ed Sullivan Show.
In Miami, Cassius Clay TKO-ed Liston,
became Muhammed Ali, and a Muslim.
Beer companies introduced pop-top tabs
for our aluminum cans.  And at Trinity College
on a hot Sunday, ready to graduate
we were here.  We 
were here.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Unresolved

Jackhammer, smartest, whiz, IBM
machine on legs, applauded
by Senators, Presidents, me.

An acolyte, ambiguous
about our mission, I wanted
hard-eyed insight, wire-
rimmed command,
rationality – emotion no
substitute for reason.
Just five months after
I arrived, you left me
to discover what you knew already.

When you knew and didn’t say –
was it loyalty? The unified front?
Influencing from the inside?
Did you hope digging deeper,
one final jackhammer
would break through?
Fired,
did you wince with terrible
irony when the tunnels spewed
their wrath on us?

That’s when I began to get it,
our losing.
Doubting,
I stayed, my analyses
piling up – spending higher,
backpacked supplies unstoppable,
database filling with bodies.

Much later, in remembrance,
you said we got it wrong,
terribly wrong.
You probed for lessons which
I studied wondering
if eleven lessons
were enough?

I think
you were not a computer.
No machine weeps
into office curtains, walks disheveled
past the posts of power, loves
the son who protests
his dad’s war.

Still
our faces reflect
on that dark wall.

Retirement

Today presents
an uncomfortable gift,
of disorientation and discovery,

unwrapping
to the horizon
or maybe not so far,

inviting
what I will be
from what I’ve been,

distinguishing
what I do
from who I am,
unfinished

Out

Mantle, Berra, Whitey Ford
Were baseball players I adored.
At ten, I dreamed their throws and hits
Could be mine too and I’d pound my mitt.

We picked up games in the old coal yard
The field was rough and diamond hard.
The guys I played with were the same –
They played a tough and gritty game.

My head was filled when up at bat.
With all my heroes’ hitting stats.
It’s not surprising consequently
That I struck out quite frequently.

And neither was my defense great –
The balls went past, the throws were late.
With gifts of neither power nor speed,
On some days I stayed home to read.

When it was time to pick the teams
We used a democratic means.
The bat was tossed and hands were stacked
To see which teammates captains backed.

Jonsey … Peter … Michael … Joe …
Eeny, meeny, miny, moe.
I did the math, I always knew,
That, out goes Y … O … U.

Dinnertime

Our dinners weren’t much to celebrate
Mom made the meal and we all ate.
And afterwards, at Mom’s clear wishes,
We two kids would wash the dishes.
The meals were nothing like gourmet,
Just nourishment to end the day.
What made the meals remarkable
Was all day long, my Mom taught school,
And kept the checkbook, and the house,
And sang in churches North and South,
And all of this activity
Consumed her time, instead of me.